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“My story began from what I can remember back in college, roughly 1998. I was taking an accounting exam in a large auditorium type room, lined with hundreds of students. Already struggling with the subject and not confident in my accounting skills, I recall the person behind me chewing their gum extremely loudly offering an occasional "snap" in between what sounded like an elephant chewing on a leaf.

This test was a huge part of my overall grade and there were strict no talking rules put in place. I struggled to concentrate; feelings of anger fell over me. I felt like I was paralyzed yet all I wanted to do was jump over the table and knock the gum out of the girl's mouth. As politely and quietly as I could, I asked her to remove the gum before I did it for her...not my proudest moment but I think I drove the point home.

Since then, I've battled various sounds in my day-to-day life. Mostly sounds of chewing, especially gum. Snapping is a huge trigger. Loud breathing can often lead me to the same stressful feelings. For years I thought I was crazy. I felt paranoid every time I walked into a large group, scanning everyone's faces to see if anyone was chewing anything. I found myself avoiding certain people and situations. It's daunting and disruptive to my social life. It's hard to explain to people and I was careful who I told as I didn't want to seem weird. Some people understand, others not so much.

I have found nothing really helps. I carry earbuds with me everywhere I go. I have found some breathing techniques to temporarily calm me and physically moving away from certain situations seems to be my only savior. I know there are plenty of people that struggle with this. It's awful to feel this way. I hope and pray someday there may be some relief. Until then, I know I am not alone and appreciate the help your foundation is providing. If nothing else, I know I am not crazy!”

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